Acceptance, it’s your choice of pain or joy to deal with.

What is Acceptance? From the dictionary it’s “ The act or process of accepting”. Makes sense.

I had been raised without a father. He’s not dead, but he seems to be in a difficult place where he can no longer be with us. It’s sad. Very sad.

People may think why I still think of my father, why don’t I hate him for leaving us, why do I care, why? Mainly because he’s my father. A female child needs her father’s comfort in difficult times, as per a male child needs his mother. It’s so hard to contain all the burden of not having someone to run to in times like these.

One thing that I am proud of is that I never gave up on myself. I know it’s easy to say all this because I’m still young and all but one thing is certain, The world has placed me in a situation only I could handle and I know I can. 

I’ve dealt with different people, situations, emotions, all that the world could feed me at a very young age. As many people see me as a normal girl, I’m not. Deep down I’m broken and I’m searching for a way to fix myself.

How I handle things? there goes the acceptance. You have to accept everything that you cannot change, everything your hands are not capable of fixing, everything the world would be giving you. For a while you would cry, get angry, be furious, be regretful, but then you would find another way to remain with the happiness that you could still get.

• Learn from the past, this means learn from other people’s as well not just yours. This lead me to a very bright path today.
• Live in the present, because thinking about the past or the future won’t help.
• Forget the Future, it’s never going to be a straight path towards your goals.
• Accept the unacceptable and let them live where you have a joyful life.

Do what you dare.

It had come to my attention that I have been changing my looks ever since I got full control of myself. A month ago I dyed my hair blonde, a month before that I dyed it red although it doesn’t really show, and some time last year I have curly hair.

People may be wondering “what the hell is wrong with her”. Well, the fact is, I am a woman of art. To me, doing what I want to myself gives me the expression of my creativity. Art has really been my passion, not just painting or designing. To me, art is something you draw your life with. It’s everywhere.

So whatever look you want to pull. Whatever dress you want to wear. Make sure you’re comfortable and confident enough to “Do what you dare” and everything will turn our amazingly awesome.

 

Alone

Ever got your heart broken for the first time? I did.

Yes, they say we have to learn…but sometimes it’s just unfair.

Worst part is I blame myself for being so miserable right now. Why did I do this why didn’t I do that.

Tip: Try not to do anything stupid, else you’ll only regret it.

(Photo Credits to Benidick Bautista)

Transformations

Last Sunday, I tried  dying my hair “ombre style”. Why? Well. Here’s an explaination.

Ever get that feeling where you’re frustrated and you don’t want to take it out on vices? Yep. That’s exactly what I felt. (Not that I have vices btw)

Whenever I feel the pressures in life stressing on me I tend to change my looks. It somehow relieves me from all the depression that I am carrying. Do I have friends? Yes I do! but sometimes they wont ever understand how complicated my mind is.

I think from one thought to another. A thought for a thought in short?

Sometimes transformations gives me a second chance to start fresh and think fresh.  Transformation could be anything, be it physically or whatever. I just know, things will always go the way you want it if you choose it with all your heart.

Just don’t get affected by the negative comments by the people around you, yeah I comment on people’s changes but it’s always up to that individual to decide on how to react on what others opinion is.

I’m not rude, I’m just brutally honest

Yes, people mistake me for being rude. The truth is, I’m just a person who is straight forward. Sometimes I feel so conscious of what I have to say to people because I know that some can’t handle my honesty.

This is somehow related to “Some things are better off unspoken “. Instead of saying something, say nothing.

Having dazzles in life? Keep it balanced.

Here’s a drawing of something that was in my mind a few months ago taken from my phone. Just a little tip, keep your life balanced whenever you feel dazzled about those things that shine in front of you, remember to keep calm and don’t get blinded by excitement. Lastly, whenever it’s dark, and you feel so lonely and depressed, look on the bright side and don’t get blinded by the dark of course!

Balance will always keep you going.

I want to tell a lot more about this drawing but I’m to lazy, so it’s up to you to create your own description or impression on this one! 

Like any other plant, flower or tree, even humans have their seasons

Yesterday I was at our garden, I wanted to appreciate how beautiful the greens outside our house are early in the morning while eating a bowl of cereal. I looked at the orchids blooming so beautifully, the cactus which once I can hold on one hand as tall as the half of me, and then I noticed, what happened to those beautiful crawling purple belled like flowers? I asked my grandmother what happened to those pretty little purple flowers that crawled and bloomed up to the top of the mango tree of our neighbor and she answered “I cut them off” so I asked her why’d she cut them off and she responded “It’s not the season for that plant”.

Then it hit me. People can really be associated with those mysterious green living things. How is this true? Think of it like this:

Like how my grandmother takes care of her good growing plants, our parents or guardians are the ones who do the caring. If you don’t take care of your plant, it will rot and die. If we don’t get to be taken care of, we will rot and die, kidding, but I believe our values and morale will. If you have a green thumb you’ll have no problem at raising your plant but I believe it’s not that easy for parents and guardians to raise children.

Seasons. I believe even we, humans, have our own different seasons. How can I say that we do? Well, not all people are fortunate to have all the pleasures of life. Sometimes we are born with a silver spoon in our mouth and sometimes we’re just plain old Joe’s walking down the streets. There are cases where those silver spoons get taken by someone else too! The cool thing about this so called “seasons” is that we can choose to bloom and be on top, just like those crawling purple flowers.

Yeah, the season for us humans may end, may it be the present or even life’s end can be your final season! It doesn’t matter. All I want to point out is, we can be whatever we want, may it be a dead plant rotting on the corner of the garden or a beautiful crawling flower taking over that old mango tree.

One more thing, don’t forget to cut those rotten stems of your sleeve! else it would only rot you down, in other words, hold you back from being  that gorgeous thing that stands out from all the leaves! If you know what I mean.